FEELING SAD..

The past week had made me feel sad and... sad...
When the fact that my friends are leaving for local uni finally sunk in last week, I felt terrible.
Sometimes worse, sometimes less.

I miss all of my friends who left, from those whom I seldom keep in touch to those who I have been in touch and to those whom I've neglected momentarily.
Sometimes, no - most of the times - I don't quite understand myself.
Sometimes, I will find my friends so often that I will fear if I'm bothering them, yet sometimes, I just felt like I needed time on my own, thus neglecting them.

Last week, I was in the need-friends zone.. Sometimes I wonder if this is a selfish part of me..
And I could only agree with this statement.
I hate myself for being erratic.. enigmatic.. and thoughtless though I always like to think of ppl's feelings..

I finally realise the grief of losing them, eventhough I know we would meet again.
Yet, I felt very lonely all of a sudden and missing all the good times we had.
I still have friends around but most of them are no longer in Taiping and although they seem more distant to me than those left in Tpg, I had great times with them, and some of whom I formed strong bonds with..

I am missing Form 6 a lot because it has been the happiest phase of my life, where I still had old friends stuck to me and yet, new friends who were there with and for me.
Maybe they will never know that I actually feel this way for I'm never one with words..
Never good with words and expressing oneself..
But they will remain in my memory for as long I hope it will.

I spent alot last week, hanging out with as many as possible and msging as many as possible.
But come to think of it, I only contacted some of them..

I sincerely wish all the best to them and will miss them.
Friends forever.