I've become Welfare for 2x in a week now. From zero experience to being a "pro".. ahem.. hehe.. I have to say I enjoy being Welfare coz I'm delighted to see food;)

Just had a Malaysian Gathering with the theme WARM - We ARe Malaysians. It's a combined event between MSA and AMCISA.
I thought Welfare was quite slack. Ahem, no it isn't. But coz I enjoy doing it, I don't feel it. The event went well I guess.
I played in one of the three games. Crazy running game til I collided with another person at full speed. I don't even know who was that, all I know is my head hurts and my leg as well.
Today I woke up to find my ankle really pain. Lebam-ing I think.

For me, there wasn't much integration and it was so unfortunate that someone lost his laptop in the event. Hope he can find it back as it really hurts to lose such an expensive, precious item..
Anyway ya, Friday night I didn't join the study group, too tired, so ya, didn't study. But it's ok, I need a little break. Saturday (today), I studied but wasn't as well as I hoped.
Nevertheless, I wish to pat myself on the back and say "Good effort!". Lol. I don't know what's up with me. But I don't want myself to get all stressed up and I want to LOVE myself more! ;)
Even bejeweled this morning. Lol.. Sometimes, we have to pamper ourselves. I guess it's not to late to realise this. Hehe..

But I think something actually accounted for my good mood. My Calculus Midterm results were released on Thurs. I got 85. ;) Wasn't entirely satisfied coz when I did the paper, I could do all the questions, so I did wonder where my 15 marks went but of course I didn't expect 100!
But I'm happy coz I expected 80 and above and it is. So, ya, should be contented. For NOW only.
Do you know that over 70 ppl got 90 and above? And the average marks is 71. And the total number of people taking Calculus easily exceeds 300 souls.. Zzzz....
I know I have to work very very hard. And I will. Hopefully, the study mood stays with me for one more month. Just one more month, pls..

I also got to know my Programming results. Expected less than 25% coz I really SUCK at it! I got 8/20, so yeah! Can rejoice! Lol.. Ya, I know it's not even half but what to do, I'm contented coz I really really suck at it.
I'm S/U-ing it, no let me rephrase, I already did! Lol, so less to worry. But of course that doesn't mean I can throw it all behind me. Still have to study..
But I dread studying Programming coz to me, it's a waste of time. I feel that I could utilise the time for my other subjects coz what I gain from revising it is really negligible.. Hais..
Anyway, I'm heading to bed now!

Nights! ;)

Life is short and unpredictable

Recently I was told that a son of a family friend has cancer just as his dad had.
It's really saddening to hear such a news. More so when the unfortunate is only in his 20's.
It just hit me that life is short and unpredictable.
Cherish the ones you love and love yourself in every aspect.
What others think of you is unimportant. You are who you are.
You are unique, so love yourself to the fullest.

It isn't hard to remind yourself to love yourself but harder to remind yourself to appreciate your loved ones. And that is not restricted to only family members but friends as well.
I for one, need constant reminder.

So, by right I should quit complaining and start living happily. I hope I can do so for that is what my parents would want me to do.
To live life happily..

I hope everyone, from my parents to my family members to my friends and to those who I have yet met, will be healthy and happy..

Nothing is more important than health and happiness..
Strive for happiness and not excellence, for nothing is perfect!

What do I do?

What do I do when I get utterly annoyed with someone.. I know I shouldn't be practising such negative attitude but it's so hard to control your own emotions..

I find that someone very childish and rather insensitive..
I did wonder if it's stress that's causing me to feel that that someone is annoying or was it accumulated for months and now I just can't stand any longer? Or was it that someone getting more and more annoying??

I realise it isn't easy to tolerate someone. Especially someone you see like what, daily?! Zzz..
I'm not one who likes to be told to do someone. Wait, let me rephrase that. I totally dislike that! Yes, coz I don't like being controlled. In fact, it would be perfectly fine with me if you live your life, I live mine. Minimal interaction is totally what I prefer....

It's so hard to surpress this feeling! I vent my frustration to my mum and she also stated that it's due to my nature, not liking being controlled or disturbed or being fussed over.. She didn't say in detail but that's what I learn about myself.

Kek ar, kek ar...

Some people told me to tell the person in a nice way but I'm not a "nice" type of person so I really doubt if my words will not succeed in hurting that someone.
So I have been shutting my eyes and ears whenever that person annoys me, telling myself to ignore, ignore....
Yes, I don't like confrontation or you can say I fear the consequences of it.
But when I'm taking care of the person's welfare, I'm killing myself inside..
Why am I so stupid.. So .. I can't find the right word..

"Isn't it common sense to not bang things around?
Isn't it common sense to be considerate with your activities when one is sleeping?
Isn't it common sense to not disgust people with your conversation with your loved ones?
Isn't it common sense to mind your own business and not question other's peculiarities (so you think)?
Isn't it common sense to not tell someone what and how to do something that is basically just not your business and when you're not asked for opinion?
Aren't these all just plain common sense..................."

They seem common sense to me for I practise all of them but don't receive the same treatment..
It's suffocating.....

Jia Lat..

I'm stuck with that word, "jia lat"! For a very good reason.. Wasted my whole day.. Crap.. Someone chop off my internet connection to youtube pls!

I'm now obsessed with Super Junior, can you believe it?? Ya, it is believable, if you know me.. Haha.. And more so with Kyuhyun! Omg, he's so charming, and that voice of him will melt you from head to toe.. *dies..*
After my frequent visits to youtube, ahem, i meant it.. I discovered that Kyuhyun isn't the shy shy quiet type of guy I thought! He's actually freaking cheeky and being the maknae (youngest), his mischieves are just so adorable..

ahh.. speechless...^^

And I've changed my perception of Heechul, the pretty boy in Suju. Lol.. Really, he's freaking pretty! All girls, we can hide our faces in a pitch black hole.. Lol.. Initially, other than thinking he looks like a girl, I find his actions and face very yongsui.. But thanks to Bae Huey, who took up my whole Sun night up til morning, intoxicating me with Suju (ya, you succeed..), I realise I fell for Heechul's charisma. He effortlessly kills people with his speech, with that poker face of his.. And he actually has a kind heart, fighting for his fellow members. Really admire his personality. So, ya, from negative, he has rised up my ranking by a lot a lot!



see.. i didn't lie.. i was so shocked to learn that it's actually a "him"... lolx..


kk, the real Heechul.. not bad la, but Khuhyun is the best! ;)


Then, the rest, all are also lovable people..
Eunhyuk, just can't get enough of his dance moves! So sleek and freaking awesome..

Today, I left my bottle in the toilet in North Spine, will collect it tomorrow, if it's still there, and if I really left it there.. Haha.. Submitted tuition grant (relieved..), delt with my NTU Study Loan, and attended a free Adobe Workshop! Heck, I don't know why and how I ended up signing up for it. Basically wasted my 2 hours there, though got nice stuff to see, but don't know how to use leh!

Then, youtube the whole evening lo.. Til my laptop also can't tahan me d.. It hanged.. Then only finally I stopped.. Hais.. If this is what it takes to make me stop, then die.. Then, I did my Macro tutorial, wasted the whole night making power point slides, drawing nice graphs on laptop.. Hais.. It's next week's tutorial actually, but I don't have time to do this weekend, so no choice.

This weekend, starting tomorrow actually, I will be freaking busy with Committee Day and MSA meeting. And I'm gonna cook with my fellow NTUBS main comm on Sat morn! Hehehe.. But got to start cooking at 6am leh!! So, ya, weekend is occupied.. Hais..

To make things worse, I got to know my MAS111 midterm results, got only 68/100. Actually, I already counted I will lose at least 30marks(stup paper!!grr!), so I was relieved to see that I lost only 32 marks.. But still.. Imagine all the Chinese nationals are way above me.. Hais.. And fellow Malaysians leh, Indonesians leh, etc.. Hais, duwana think..
But next Sat(31/10/09) got quiz again! Oh no! Just one week, with no weekend and with next Friday occupied for MSA-AMCISA combined supper!

*JIA LAT*