2NE1 - I Don't Care

Today I watched my last Music Bank before departing to Sg.. I'm so sad! This is my favourite show week in week out! *cries with mukus flowing out (ahaha..)

But seriously, I'd miss it so so so so much.. Miss KBS World in NTU..

This episode of Music Bank is interesting bcoz I was love struck.. Ahh..

Haha, no, it's not a boy band.. Not Big Bang's comeback.. Oh no, I can't believe I'm gonna miss that!

But it's related to them.. The female Big Bang! ^^

2NE1 !!!

Ahaha, ya I mentioned them before briefly in my blog but never actually loved them the way I love Big Bang.. Though I did have a liking for CL and Minzy..

Anyway, my 2nd time listening to their new song, "I Don't Care"..

I lurve it...

"I don't care.. eh eh eh eh eh..."

Ish, it's stuck in my head now.. Ahaha..

Got to see CL's eyes for the 1st time, lol.. Boy, are they small but I still love her.. She's so charasmatic.. In a way, she takes after GD so much..

But no, that's not why I like her.. I just like her for who she is..

And I like their new outfit.. Nice and cool! Not too cranky.. It was.. NICE!

LTR > Dara > Bom > CL > Minzy~

2NE1~I Don’t Care Lyric

Romanized
[CL]
hey playboyits about timeand your time’s upI had to do this one for my girls you knowsometimes you gotta act like you don’t carethat’s the only way you boys learn
[minji]
ni otgise mudeun ripseutigeun naneun jeoldaero yongseomotaemaeil harue sushipbeon kkeojyeoinneun haendeuponbyeonhaji anheulgeotman gata oh oh
[sandara]
geujeo chinguraneun sumanheun yeojachingunal ttokgachi saenggakhajima I want let it byeije nimamdaerohae nan miryeoneul beorillaehanttae jeongmal saranghaenneunde oh
[CL]
gakkeumsshik sure chwihae jeonhwalgeoreo jigeumeun saebyeok daseosshibanneon tto dareun yeojaui ireumeul bulleo no
[bom]
I don’t care geumanhallae niga eodieseo mwol hadeonije jeongmal sanggwan anhalge bikyeojullaijewa ulgobulgo maedallijimacause I don’t care e e e e e ecause I don’t care e e e e e e
[minji]
cause I don’t care e e e e e ecause I don’t care e e e e e eBoy I don’t care
[minji]
dareun yeojadeurui darireul humchyeoboneunniga neomuneomu hanshimhaemaeil ppaenonneun keopeulling na mollae han sogaetingdeoisang motchameulgeotgata oh oh oh
[dara]
neon jeoldae aniraneun sumanheun nauichinguneon neukdaeran chingudeulkkaji tailleotjimancharari holgabunhae neoege nan gwabunhaenae sarangira mideonneunde oh oh
[CL]
oneuldo bappeudago malhaneun neo hoksina jeonhwahaebwatjimanyeoksi dwieseon yeoja useumsoriga deullyeo oh no
[bom]
I don’t care geumanhallae niga eodieseo mwol hadeonije jeongmal sanggwan anhalge bikyeojullaeijewa ulgobulgo maedallijimacause I don’t care e e e e e ecause I don’t care e e e e e e
[dara]cause I don’t care e e e e e ecause I don’t care e e e e e eBoy I don’t care
[minji]
nan neottaeme ulmyeo jisaedeon bameul gieokhae boydeo huhoehal neol saenggakhani mami swiwonne boynal nochigin akkapgo gatgien shishihajannniisseulttae jalhaji neo wae ijewa maedallini
[CL]
sogajun geojitmalmanhaedo subaekbeononeul ihuro nan namja ullineun bad girlijen nunmul hanbangul eobsi neol biuseosarangiran geim sok losermureupkkurko jabeul su innianim nun apeseo dangjang kkeojyeo
[bom]
I don’t care geumanhallae niga eodieseo mwol hadeonije jeongmal sanggwan anhalge bikyeojullaeijewa ulgobulgo maedallijimacause I don’t care e e e e e ecause I don’t care e e e e e ecause I don’t care e e e e e ecause I don’t care e e e e e eBoy I don’t care

Translation
[CL]Hey playboyIt’s about timeAnd your times upI had to do this one for my girl you knowThat’s the only way you boys learn
[Minji]I can’t ever forgive you for that lipstick on your collarEvery day, your phone’s always offIt doesn’t seem like you’re going to change oh oh
[Sandara]All those girlfriends you call “friends”Don’t think of me in the same way as them, I won’t let it flyFrom now on, do as you want, I’m going to stop caringFor some time I really loved you but oh
[CL]Sometimes you get drunk, and call me, now it’s 5:30 amAgain you say another girl’s name no
[Bom]I don’t care, I’ll stop caring about what you’re doing wherever you areFrom now on I really don’t care, I’ll get out of the wayFrom now on don’t come to me and cry, and cling oncause don’t care e e e e e ecause don’t care e e e e e e
[Minji]cause don’t care e e e e e ecause don’t care e e e e e eBoy I don’t care
[Minji]Stealing glances at other girl’s legsYou’re so so hopelessEveryday you take off your couple ring, and secretly go on a blind dateI don’t think that I’ll be able to take it anymore oh oh oh
[Sandara]My friends say that you’re not really worth itYou even went to your wolf-like friends for advice butI’d rather keep it simple, I’m too good for youI believed you were my love but oh oh
[CL]Today you said you were busy, I tried phoning you butAs expected, in the background I heard a girl’s laugh oh no
[Bom]I don’t care, I’ll stop caring about what you’re doing wherever you areFrom now on I really don’t care, I’ll get out of the wayFrom now on don’t come to me and cry, and cling oncause don’t care e e e e e ecause don’t care e e e e e e
[Sandara]cause I don’t care e e e e e ecause I don’t care e e e e e eBoy I don’t care
[Minji]Because of you, I remember crying till dawn boyI regret every time I think about you when my heart was too easy, huh boy?I’m too good to throw away and too boring to haveYou should’ve treated me better when we were together why are you clinging to me now
[CL]You fooled me with your lies hundreds of timesFrom today on, I’ll be a bad girl who makes guys cryNow without a single tear, I’ll laugh at youLoser who’s inside a game called loveGet on your knees and take me backIf not, get out of my sight right now
[Bom]I don’t care, I’ll stop caring about what you’re doing wherever you areFrom now on I really don’t care, I’ll get out of the wayFrom now on don’t come to me and cry, and cling oncause don’t care e e e e e ecause don’t care e e e e e eBoy I don’t care

Gee.. I've never even done this for Big Bang before.. Ahh..

2NE1 is cool! ^^

LTR > Bom > Dara > CL > Minzy~

5 more days..

Woke up with eyes bulging.. Whether did they anot, I dunno.. But I get the weird sensation around my eyes.. You know.. when you don't get enough sleep..
Thought I was running late for a 10am bfast with friends when I woke up at 9.45am.. Haha.. Alarm was not heard, as usual.. ;p
Turn out I was the early one, afraid to get down coz none of my friends were present and erm, I was afraid that I got the wrong shop.. Haha..
Anyway, saw YP and I got down. Haha, with uncles and granduncles around, we were slightly more conscious of our behavior and manners..
But failed at times too.. Hee.. How I'd miss that in Sg..
Hope I can meet crazy friends in NTU.. After all, I need to get some peers rite? Haha, ya, I'm admitting that I'm crazy. Wahaha..

Nice peaceful gathering.. Only 5 of us, such a miserable number of friends left in Tpg.. But that's not gonna deter us from enjoying.
Was introduced to "Puri" (okay, I dunno how do u spell it.. SL? Anyone??)
Haha, basically we're gonna reunite in PC Fair.. Lol, 3 will be helpers while TW and I will be customers.. Lol.. Or rather, pengacau.. Ehehe..
If only it was earlier or I'd be going to NTU later, then I can be one of the helpers too.. Earn some pocket money to Sg.. Gosh, the thought of conversion makes me shudder.. >.<
Even the money that I saved up from my four months of working will be "kei sui"..

Anyway, money should not be a problem. Opportunities don't come knocking often.. I should cherish it and make the most out of it..
Reached home and hit the laptop (ehehe..) for awhile before I headed to school..
So sorry, Xing Ying! I was not allowed to take your cert for you. Both Ms. Chuah and Pn. Lam said "No" almost the same time.. Haha..
It seems like it's a serious offence if I did so.. Haha.. Nola, just that we have to take it ourselves..

Talked very long to Pn. Lam, interrupting her essay writing process.. She's such a hardworking and always learning teacher..
Too bad can't talk much to Pn. Han.. She wasn't there at first and when she returned to staff room, I was engaged in a conversation with Pn. Lam.
When I went over to Pn. Han, she had not much time before she starts R&D with the Lower Sixes.. R&D?? Gosh.. Haha.. But seriously, pity them..

The cert is so broad, can't fit into my file! Ish.. But it looks nice.. Except that I would much prefered it to be in just English rather than in both languages..
It didn't dawn on me how valuable this cert is, academically and also the process of obtaining it..
Much have been learnt and the way my dad talks about it being connected to Cambridge (I didn't actually realise it..), I can feel his pride in me. *Sniff sniff.. (Haha..)

And just a few days ago, I realised that I'm going to University! Okay, I know all these while that I'm going to Uni but it wasn't a big deal for me..
It has been a common thing that students go to Uni after high school, so it doesn't appear to be anything special..
"It's just called University.. Same as school la.."
You know, that kind of thought..
But I just realised that in my parents' time, it was difficult, very difficult to get into Uni.. You have to damn good or filthy rich..
So, my parents never had the opportunity.. But they didn't keep that away from me..
In fact, they gave me all that they never had..
I can't believe I'm tearing up.. I'm getting so emo.. Shit!
So, ya, back to it.. They are proud and happy that I'm going to Uni, a phase in life they never got the chance to taste..
If only money can buy back time, I'd want to get them back their time so that they can experience what I'm about to in the next 4 yrs..

So, NTU, give me a blast, okay!

No more indecisiveness! Hooray!

Pn. Chuah told us to get double degrees when we visit her.
I will go one up and get myself triple degrees!
Haha, nono, I don't want to end up with a divorce cert alongside my wedding cert..
Not that sort of third degree.. Nono.. Haha..

Being as undecided as I've always been, not knowing whether to choose what I want or what is better for me, I admit I hate being in such dilemma.
It totally sucks..
Not only am I eating myself in the inside but I am also worrying those around me..
I know I'm a terrible person and sometimes, I really feel that I don't deserve the love and support they shower me with, despite my flaws..

So, I have decided, irrespective of the reply, I will go ahead with what I have chosen. There shall be no regrets, no sadness, just a fruitful life ahead awaiting me and I'm gonna reach that with smiles along the way.
Hopefully, I'd be able to make those around me happy and proud as well.

In the future, be it in the short term or even when I'm all teethless and covered with wrinkles, I shall fulfill my inner passion and get a third degree!
Maybe it'll be the second.. Who knows.. Whichever that comes first..
Haha..

Okay, that's it, be positive, be happy, be determined and enjoy my university life to the fullest!

Hall 2~

Hostel application was out yesterday!
I got Hall 2. Was hysterical coz I don't know where is Hall 2! Flew downstairs and searched for the NTU Map..

Found it! Okay.. Hall 2.. Hall 2.. Where are you...???

The map I found has labellings.. I got this fr the NTU website..

Here it is - Hall 2..

The green colour buildings in the circle..

Yeah! Was my initial reaction.. I got a hall which is centralised and has a canteen! Not hall 7! I was told that Hall 7 is the nearest to my school but one of the worst halls coz no canteen and right in the corner..

So, ya, i was happy to get Hall 2 ;p

And I got the cheapest rate - SGD 155.. Hehe *all smiles..*

Melveen said we got old halls and he was kinda sad. Ah, it's ok.. I don't mind.. Hehe.. Coz then onli I realised that new halls have different rates - SGD 160..
Haha, so I'm cool with Hall 2~

Then...

Melveen asked me how's my bathroom.. Is it shared...

I completely forgotten about tat.. Oh no, ken cheong again...

OMG! It is indeed shared!

I have to clean my own bathroom and buy my own toilet paper! *cry!!*

When my parents heard of that, they said they prefered me to have shared bathrooms - more convenient and have more privacy..

Well, ya...

But I guess there are pros and cons..

Anyway, I'm happy I got Hall 2!

Rambling.. Rambling..

I can't get myself away from Facebook. Yi Phing and I took up farming (2 in fact) and boy were we lame. We kept adding bugs and weeds to each other's plantations and den debug and deweed (i don't think this word exists ;p) our plants. Haha..
Then, I got stuck at Restaurant City. It's lame too in a way coz I'll just stare at the little Joyce, Tan, Tee-Ni, Ng and Erin (feels weird, haha!) cooking, serving food, cleaning the dishes and also the toilets! (latest addition)
But somehow I'm bored and that's what I've been doing.. Laid off Facebook games such as Wakawaka, Bejeweled and even Zuma.

I'm in a dilemma due to my inner desire to blast my speakers, which are connected to my dekstop and play those lame but i-love-it FB games on my laptop.
Due to the undeniable fact that my internet connection would ever so gladly disconnect on my dekstop each time I start playing the FB games, I actually.. erm.. on BOTH!
Haha! My dad's gonna kill me.. But I don't do that often of course..
Only when im emo, I'll need music desperately (and loud) and things to distract me and hopefully lift my mood..
Sounds really like I'd need a mental diagnosis eh? No worries, I can proudly diagnosed myself as enigmatic, emo, essentric! Haha, 3 e's.. And my name begins with 'e' too! Wahaha..

Maybe being Leo plays a part though I doubt it applies for all Leo's.. But I'd really want to and believe that's the major contribution to my unstableness.. Haha..

Gosh, I'm left with only what, erm, 12 days! Before I leave my much loved Taiping and home! Not forgetting my parents.. And friends.. I'm falling into depression yet again! Oh, no, I need to pull myself back or else it'll suck me just like what quicksand does..
The more I struggle, the further I'll sink.. And I am sinking.. So what the heck!

Tomorrow I'll know the outcome of my hostel application in NTU..
I only hope I'll get a trouble-free roomate.. One who will not give me any problems or trouble..
My demands aren't high right.. So, pls, god, Buddha, and Kuan Yin help me get one nice roomate..
Of course, it'll be awesome to get one nice, warm, 'ngam' roomate.. But again, that's not priority, so pls grant my wish!

I'm getting more and more afraid each day.. What a useless Leo! I hope I have more courage..
More confidence.. So that I need not worry about petty things and get myself all emo..
Crap, I actually have loads to do but here I am, looking at the computer screen again..
I need to pack, wash my shoes, etc.. But I'm not doing them!
I suck at these.. Suck at organising.. I'm such a whimp..

Okay, okay, butts off the seat now! Urgh! Bless me, so that I'm really getting off for sure.. >.<

A hole in the defence

Self-control is what makes all the difference in human,
While some uphold their principles in life, some succumb to their desires,
There are some who unwillingly and miserably let their emotions cloud their rationalism.

Why is it so hard to not do something you do not wish to?
Something you hate.. Something you despise..
It has been a long journey searching for the answer to the seemingly impossible question.
Yet, where did it lead to?
A bleak, cold, lonely and confined space,
Filled with nothing but emptiness..

Losing control over ones mind and emotions,
Allowing frustration and stress to take the wheel,
Allowing oneself to stoop so low till it is unbearable to face the mirror,
Let alone face the world..

How strange is it to break down at the snap of a finger
When one can handle physical pain effortlessly, but fail to deal with frustration..

Losing self-control has created an ugly creature,
One who loses rationalism and shiver in anger,
Using all ones strength to push back the drops,
Pushing one to the utmost limits of endurance..

When the barrier finally broke,
What an ugly sight it creates,
Everything around turns blue,
And music is in great need..

Lips pursed tightly, Silence befalls..

CHINESE ASTROLOGY

Birthday: 8/6/1990

The general description about this person is calm, cool, quiet, hardworking, intimate, self-assertive, insure, permissible, impractical, calculating, sensitive, nervous and patient.

One word for people born in this month is prudent.

These people appear to be easy going and behave in a mild manner.
They are often generous and sympathetic to other people.
This type of person can be very friendly and convincing; they often persuade people to believe that they have unique qualities and knowledge that others do not have.
They are very prudent and detail-oriented.
They have necessary patience and faith to accomplish their goals, which require extensive time to accomplish.
They are very sensitive and can be easily hurt. When they become emotionally involved, they become very jealous and biased.
These people tend to be overly cautious and always lose the opportunities to become successful.
They are very permissible and easily influence by others.
They tend to worry all the time and are very moody.
They may suffer silently and are always misjudged by other people.
They handle money carefully and accumulate wealth in small increments.

DISASTER!!

Last night.. or should I say early this morning..
Before 2am, I decided to go to bed, but...
I 'tangan gatal'.. Took my hp n play..
Tried to set pin number to my sim card..
Ended up..
Locking it!!
"SHITTTT!!!!!!!!
What am I suppose to do??
Oh, no.. Die, die, die, die.."
Those were the words running through my mind immediately..

I can't excess it at all..
Need to key in a stup code called PUK number..
which can only be found through the operator..
At 2am?? Heck..

I was reluctant to tell my mum to bring me to the maxis centre to settle it..
And it was way too long.. I can't sleep as long as this problem is not resolved!
"Think, think, think.."
"INTERNET!"
Got up, flicked the lights on, switched on my laptop and started searching for solutions..
Hotline number.. - 24 hours!
Perfect!
Hang on.. I ain't have my hp to make d call..
If only my two other numbers are still 'alive'..

House phone - no longer have the one outside my room..
Downstairs house phone? Nope, dad still awake..
Mum's hp! Sneaked down and tip toed to her hp n made the call in my room..
Yaya, I know, you must be thinking "What's the big deal?" - Why the heck can't I tell my parents..
Pride! I mean, seriously it sounds so stupid to lock your OWN sim card..
And I don't wana trouble them to go all the way to Maxis Centre..

Okie, back to the calling part. 1 300 820 120..
Told the guy my problem and he ask for my hp number..
Gave him..
Asked for my full name..
Gave him as well..
"Okay, Miss Erin, actually there's no problem for me to provide you the PUK number."
Okay.. Just give me then!
"But our system is currently down."
HECK!
"I can only give you the PUK after 4am."
FINE...........

Slept back and set 6am alarm - I wana get it done so it won't bother me, I tak tenteram le..
Hp is rather important you see.. It's the same for everyone, isn't it..!!??
So, I woke up unstably at 6.30am, I think.. Ya, half an hour after my alarm - snoozed it as usual, but without me realising..
At least I woke up! Of course, I had to get this done..
Drank some water and tried my voice to hear if I sound okay..
Whenever I just wake up, my voice gives me away.. It's like I'm telling you "I just woke up.."

Okay, called again. A girl answered..
She asked more questions such as IC no., address..
Then, at last..
She gave me the damn PUK number!
Finally unblocked my sim card and changed my pin number, while she's still on the line.. In case, this crap thing creates another problem for me.

I couldn't really sleep after that..
So, when I woke up at 11.30am - mum woke me up - I felt terrible..
Of course she didn't know.. And she woke me up coz I was suppose to go out at 12.30pm.. Thank god, plans cancelled..

I lay on the floor the whole afternoon, watching tv while trying to feel better..

It was a long long time since I last sleep, wake up and slept back..
Unlike last time when I always woke up in the middle of the night to watch Champions League and went to school after that..

How did I do that?? Entah la..

After having fried eggs with potato and onion at around 5pm, haha!
I was rejuvenated! Ish.. Should have cooked that earlier!
What a day.. I swear I won't simply press on anything anymore!

VISITING PN.CHUAH & PN.TOH..

Yesterday, Hazell, Sulin, Yi Phing and I materialised our planned visit to Pn.Chuah and Pn.Toh's houses.

Visiting Pn.Chuah's house first at 3pm, we were welcomed with drinks, kacang and even biscuits. Haha, Pn.Chuah kept telling us to EAT..
It was nice to see her outside of school although she is still very much the same excited Pn.Chuah.. Haha..
Yi Phing and I have actually saw and talked to her, erm i duno, mayb 2-3 times in the past week or so, prior to visiting her but it was the first for Hazell and Sulin after years I think.
I'm glad we made it to her house where we talked about lotsa things and got to know her better.

Her house is like a layer cake - where there are 3 different levels. Pity her, she has to climb so many flights of stairs each day.. Not forgetting those in school..
Thank god we bought her biscuits - Tau Sa Pia (I think), as buah tangan coz she gave us angpau, wishing us luck for our studies..
How nice of her..

At around 4.45pm, we proceded to Pn.Toh's house which is just on top of the Lake View hill from Pn.Chuah's which is nearer to the foot of the hill.
We were 15 minutes late.. Oops.. Hehe..
We have to praise Sulin for her 'Oh, nothing. I choked.' Lol.. Sulin, you have talent and your antena's slightly longer. Congrats! =p

I hopped back into YP's car and Hazell went in Sulin's, where she guided us to Pn.Toh's house.
Sulin! You don't put your signals on! YP and I were wondering if we have reached d anot when you stopped outside Pn.Toh's house. Haha..
And YP got honned by the car behind.. Lol..

Pn.Toh's house is simply WOW. It is so big and beautiful. All credits to her for maintaining the house in such fine conditions.
She admits she is a very busy woman although she has quit teaching. With 3 kids and such a house to manage, she really is busy. What more, she's giving tuition now too.
The students are so so lucky to have her as her tuition teacher coz she's the best teacher I've had! It'll be wasted if she totally quit teaching Addmath.. =)

It was my first time eating dragon fruit jelly! It looks nice and taste nice. Jelly outa dragon fruit - great idea..

Then, Pn.Toh wanted to take a pic with us and we did. Her daughter took for us.

Only then, we realised we didn't take one with Pn.Chuah!
Pn.Toh told us to bring Pn.Chuah here so that we could all take a pic together.
Oh boy, it was so hard to persuade Pn.Chuah. It took two of us to talk to her through the phone.
YP's really good - it was like a scene where she persuades her patient to take their medication! Haha..
So, I went with YP to fetch Pn.Chuah and we took a 'family' photo!



Sweet.. Yesterday was real sweet.. At least we met with our dear Form 4 teachers, who both left at the end of our Form 4, before embarking on our university journey.

I owe my foundation in Math to both of them!
Thank you, Pn.Chuah!
Thank you, Pn.Toh!
We'll never forget you and hope to meet you again in the near future..